||[07 Jul 2004|10:30pm]
who_cares37 or whatever the fuck it is if ur such a tough bitch why cant u tell me ur name and not just ur user name??? bitch
||[07 Jul 2004|08:26pm]
heyy i dont think i am goan be uupdating alot nemore...
onlii when sumtin realii important happens and i need to let it out...:x
do yeah whawtever lets jsut asdy life sux to make a looong storiii short
||[22 Jun 2004|04:18pm]
Ddidnt update in skool todaii...because i was outside instead of on the computers..
Tomorrow is my last day of skool...hell yea!
Also john is comin over tomorrow, and we are hangin....
I dont know if he is gion to like me thought so ia m kinda scared..
I wasnt to go out with him soo bad though...but if he thinkks i am ugly i am fucked...
Well yeah he is comin over after skoool and leavin at 3:30..so yea...
I dont know what we are gonna do whikle he is here....
He says i love u on the phone to me thoguh...
I dont know with him nemore alli know is that i wanan be with him...
yeah so Thursday we are all goin to the beach..gonna b cool..iguess...lolz
Tghen friday i am gion over to johns house..and stayin there for like a couple of hours...We are goin swimmin whooo hoooo....lolz
This is gonna be great i am waitin gfor him to clal em so yea...
Well gonna go relii hot about to get in shower peace babes!
I LOVE U SOOO MUCH JOHN!
||[21 Jun 2004|11:55am]
heyy yeserday i went to Cape May with my dadz and sister...
it was okay i talked to john like most of the day...
its scarii becasue my dad alikes him and was talkin to him...
wow..lolz i might be sein him todaii or tomorrow.....hopefulii todaii..
Hmm yea...neway i was talkin to john allll night long...
It was pretti cool...i guess...
But this girl danielle is involed..Loooong storii..
yeah so yesterday i got a hermit crab...ya whoo hoo yay!.......
I NAMED HIM GLIMPSY!!!!!!!!!! hell yea! rock on..
Well i might go with heather to see rich...d k yet,,bc i wanna see jon......
hmm...i dont like elaine that much..
I realii dont wanna hang with her but i guess i have to..
U know what no i dont! i dk nemore...
Well yeah onlii 1 1/2 more days of skoool and i am out!!!!!!!!!1
Last night the firew alarms went off in our skool....
4 fire trucks and 4 police men =...came it was an electrical fire......
i AM SOO TIRED OF ALL THIS SHIT!!!!!!!!!!! WITH LINZEY AND HER SISTER!!!!
i am soo tired i went to bed at like 2 last night..
Anyway yaa talk to yall later love u((u know who u are))
||[18 Jun 2004|11:58am]
ha ha i had a free period todaii in the mornin so i updated it then...
Um yeah but i feel weird not updating it during luch like i always do...
So here i am updating crapola...dont ask....
b4 i was on my away to luch lal the spotswood guys cazme to our skool..
Omg they are soo hot!
Then Garret came and he was in the office....
Rememeber i said he was mad at me...
I dont think he is that much nemore i waved and smiled, and he did the same! :)
he is soo hot man lolz i am so glad he realii isnt mad at me nemore..
But i am afraid to like call him and stuff like that bc he might say sumtin..
That would like make me upset :( so i am alittle iffy...
So yeah but right now he is on the gym talking to all the eigth graders..
I stopped at teh dorrs and watched him lolz....
A little obsessed? na lolz
I just realii like him and he alawyas takled to me and made me happy...
So yeah well i am gonna go help heather with er project b4 recess is over..
HAHAHA i will stalk GARRET 2 befoer i go upstairs hhheheheh:) I LOVE U GARRET ALOT AND I WILL ALWAYS LOVE U AND NEVER BE MAD AT U EVER AGAIN! ily guys
||[18 Jun 2004|09:29am]
heyy ppl in skool...
Heather is not goin to North Caroline..
She is stayionmg here with me and her brother is goin....
Linz is sleepin over todaii...
We are goin to the mall with these hot guys....
Then we are comin home..
Eatin,soda, and watchin like lots of frickien movies..
Gonna br great..
TODAY I HAVE A SKIRT ON HAHAHAH...thats funni..
It actualii doesnt look bad...
Except for the sneakers i am wearing with it..
Oh well ppl will have to deal..
Neway tomorrow i am goin to the rink!
YAY I AM GONNA SEE VAL!
I know i am gonna get upset with joey and mad...:(
So yeah becasue he is an asshole...neway yea....
I am gonna go onlii 3 1/2!!! more days til,l skool is out!
SUMMER 04 BABII~! yea~!
||[16 Jun 2004|12:03pm]
heyy in skool...
Last night i had a sad dream....
it was about Garret..
I dremaed that he was talking to me again and yeah he loved me..
I dont knowi guess i relii love him alot...but u kno that i guess over..
Today i have counseling and i am goin to talk my dad into leettin me go to N.C....
since heather is gin i think he will let me go..
But if i aint allowed heather isnt goin and we are goin to the rink...hmmm
yeah there isnt much to say...
I dont know who i like nemore.....
yeah well i miss joey alot but he is with that bitch dorothy...
||[15 Jun 2004|11:48am]
in skool..came in at 11 todaii because of testing...
Yesterday i didnt go to skool at all...it was okay....
My dad wont let me go to North Carolina with Dawn and i am upset...
Hmm....my sunburn is much much better...
Garret doesn call or hang nemore with me...
He said i was imaturee and now i am realii upset and i was crying allll night...
:'( i saw him on the way to dawns...jhe smiled but looked mad..i knew he hates me.
yEAH tomorrow i have cunseling.,...grrrrreat! NOT~!
I called joey yesterday...
He wasnt acting like hiself..
But then he told me that his mother might have cancer...:(
So yeah i understood...
But then he told me that he was goin out with Dorothy!!!!! grrrr..
He lied ot me and i am realii pisesed..
HEATHER wants me to go to the rink..
I wasnted to but now i am thinking i dont wanna...
1 because of joey
2sue and will((i wanna hang with them))
3 Drama((cant atke it nemroe))
I just dont kno what to do with my life nemore...
I like carlo alot but he doesnt like me so he is gone...
Garret hates me...
and other ppl...but u know i dont know....
hmmm....well yeah just realii upset todaii....
I hope my dad says yes about downs bc he said he mght htink about it...
But u kow what i will just bring it up in counseling....
well gonna go and finidh up the 2nd part of my day..
All i have is Computer lab,science, and LA
so yeah buh bye xXhEaRtBrOkEnXx
||[11 Jun 2004|02:40pm]
I LOVE YOU SAMON!!!!!!!!!
((HA HA HA MY LUVER!))
||[11 Jun 2004|11:53am]
Garret realli upset me yesterday by tellin me the truth...
And it sux nobodii likes me...he is out of the picture i just realii love him..
Chris is gooooone...i am happi about that kinda...
Umm carlo isnt looking for ne1...
I am jsut lonely...
Joey is still there but who knows about him....
ERG! i love alot of ppl they just dont love me...
Neway yeah my sunburn is much better now:)
Doesnt hurt as much it just looks bad...
hmmm...sUE And will arent coming over they are goin sumwhere......
Joey wantrs to hang todaii i was talking to him...
He didnt sound to happi...
Yeah i have no clue what i am doin this weekend...
I want to hang with garret and be together with him...
But yesterday ruined it all...
I DONT KNO NEMORE!!!!!!!!! :'(
Mt cousin stopped breathing yesterday...
On her trip....
Looong story i feele realii bad for her ....
||[10 Jun 2004|11:57am]
Yesterday me and heather didnt go to skool and we went to the beach...
Me n her stayed there for 5 hours and got burnt as hell...
it hurts soooo much its not even funnii...
Neway yeah todai ewveryone is looking at me n heather saying stuff to us...lolz...
yeah Garret came and saw me yesterday and felt realii bad for me...
He kissed me and said to my sis i was his new girlfriend....
I love him sooo much we might go to the movies todaii..or tomorrow...
We went to aunt siisys yesterday...and saw gramz.....
:( monnday and tuesday i aint goin to skool...
I have nuclear testin...
i am sooo scared...
Neway yeah heathers x xhris is in love with me....
He got me a necklace and sumtin else...
And gave me his sweatshirt..
neway yeah dont know what i doin this weekend....
I HATE PPL! they dont comment
||[04 Jun 2004|11:51am]
um yea its friday...
hmm todaii i am gonna stay in skool actualii...
I feel like shit but thats ok...he he
Neway last night i babysittied my sister and i got 20$...
I hung out with Garret last night..:) o man!
He is soo sexi....
He kissed me and we were flirtin like the whole night...he
Yeah he was huggin me i love him..
He just got his drivers permit and yeah...
hE said he might hang with me this weekend and yea..
He likes me and i said i own his ass...aww
He is so sweet..
Neway yesterday heather broke up with chris..
And tonight we are goin to the mall with SAL JOEY ((maybe)) and maybe Gee
Or cj! :)
Whatever though have no clew what i am doin yet..
All i know is i am goin to tha mall...
Yeah well neway i might still have to get surgery..
i have bumps all over my ne ck and shit..
Watever dont feel like typing so bye
||[28 May 2004|02:44pm]
yeah when last time i updated was in lunch so yea...
after lunc i had computers and it sucked i guess...not realii i had a free period..
Then i went to science and looked at rocks o fun! yeah right...lolz
Neway 7th period my grade and 8th grade had a person who survived the holocaust..
O fun.. he was old and he was loszing his mind..ha haha
I didnt even listen i like fell asleep...lolz and i was talking to Mr Lawton..
He is like the coolest teacher..he played games on his phone the whole time..
And this kid tryed to messs him up and Lawton was like "JerkOFF!" lolz
Lawton curses his brains out and he is soo g rreat lolz..
Yeah neway i might go to the carnival again w ho knows..
Depends on what sue and will are doin...
aLll i know is when i get home i am goin to sleep..
I am soo tired right now its not funni...
So yeah i am having a free period in LA onlii 15 minutes until..
My 3 day weekend..
HELL YEA!~! hehe
well i dont know, nobodii comments me so i might delete my LJ...so yea buh bye every1..i love u..u all know who u are :)
||[28 May 2004|11:52am]
It's finalii fRiDaY!.....yay!!
neway yea last night i went to the carnival with heather...
It was soo fun..
Mark and Mike were there i didnt talk to Mark..
I screamed he was a fuckin faggot when we were on the Gee Wiz...
So yeah i went on a ride with Mike his best friend lolz he was high...
I love Mike he is soo nice i just hate Mark ew..
Neway yeah i went on rides nonstop...
mY EX Cj came to meet me there and he looked hott...
he was dressed up because he was at a banquet..
And then We were hangin out with Chris and Chris D it was cool...
Linz was with is 2..
I was so craZ i felt like i was high and shit...hehehe
Then i was talkin to the guy that flirts with me at the carnival who runs the bears..
He wasnt talkin to me at first and i was like" fine dont talk to me"...
hE said he hasnt had a ciggrette in 3 hrs...
Then i went to see him again and he had a ciggerette..
So i was like "u in a better mood now?"
and he was like hell yeah and he started flirtin again...
Couple hours after we were leaving and Carlo just got there...
Linz went up to him and ask if he liked me and he said yeah why..whats the big deal..
I felt so loved lolz...
Neway oh yeah sue and will were with us for a while then they went bac to the house..
Rich aat the carnival shoved Cotton Candii in my mouth and then i went on a spinny..
ride..lolz and i felt sick and then i was ok until i got home...
I walked my sis home and threw up in my dads bushes..ha hba ha haa ha ha haha
That was cool..
Well neway this weekend shall be fun! Todaii we are eieher goin to the carnival...
Or we are goin sumwhere else with Sue And Will...yay doesnt matter to me...
Tomorrow we are goin to Uncle Jrs! yay! yeah right Uncle jr is gonna get me! O NO!
lolz neway yeah Sue and Will are goin with us AND JOEY! O NO AGAIN! lolz..
And we are goin swimming tomorrow and i am gonna be in a bathing suit...
I said i was wearing a shirt over my bathing suit into the pool..he he
HE WILL END UP TAKIN IT OF THOUGH LOLZ! o man so sexi! ha
Neway yeah just thought i should let u know i got a new SN sTuBbOrN bYaTcH
That was the name i called my self when i was with joey on the phone.
And he said i should make that my sn he he he
and it is true isnt it???? NOBODII COMMENTS ME NEMORE!!! I AM MAD AND UPSET!
FUCK U ALL!
||[28 May 2004|02:06am]
XxI HATE M LIFExX
i just thought i should let everyone know that incase they dont!
||[28 May 2004|01:58am]
well i was in skool....
I usually update in recess but i had to make up a test then...
So yea i think i didi bad..
I get out of skool usually at 3...but today i got out at 1
Because i am goin to the hospital :(...
I gotta go get an ultra sound...so yea..for my neck..
It sux becuz ppl at the hospital scare me lolz...yea..
Tonight i am goin to the crnival again!! yea! with will and sue!
Maybe joey might go i dont realii care nemore..
Because i am prob gonna see him this whole weekend! lolz oh no
Ha ha Well yeah i am in the library waiting for my sister..to
get out of reading and then we are goin to the hospital! yay! NOT!...:(
I hope carlo is there tonight...
Yeah I HOPE THAT MARK AND MIKE DONT COME DOWN! i hate them soo much....
Neway yeah there isnt much to write so bye bye
O YEAH AND I MIGHT BE DELETING MY LJ BECAUSE NOBODII IS COMMENTING NEMORE SO WHATS THE SENSE!?
||[26 May 2004|11:54am]
sux of course but todaii is realii bad...
First Nick got on my nerves..and he is about to get smacked for his crap...
He is bein a real jerk...
Also todaii have counseling with my dad...grreeat another daii of crying...
hm...i dont know what to nemore...
In sosical studies i went to the bathroom and Laura Premiano was there...
She said she heard some stuff that was goin around town..
And it was aboUt mark...OMG! i am sick and tired of this..
I dont even talk to him nemore he is blocked i hate his guts i never did nethin..
All we did wsa kiss on the lips omg! i am so pissed righ now...
So yeah and it was said that his dick was up my ass...UH no..i dont think so...
Neway yea yesterday Will and Sue came over.. aha ha ha the white stufferz...!
Tomorrow i am gion to the carnival joey might come...
We are stayin until 11...
I am just so tired of everything...My dad,Love.Friendz..
I just wanna dissapear or be left alone for a while..
And nobodii unserstands...
Erg! This weekend Joey might come with us to the BBQ and go swimming! Oh no!
lol he gets to see me in a bathing suit! Hw sexi! aha
I told him i gonna wear a shirt over it..he he na probaly not..
Neway i just need sum1 to talk to about thingz...
I usualii either talk to joey or Sue and Will
But joey cant use the phone and sue and will arent around most of the time...
Well atleast not the times i realii need them...:( so..
Last night i was talking to theresa and yeah she was on my side about sum things..
Well i am gonna go finish this terrible daii....
After skool i have counseling with my dad until like 5 so..
After that i am gonna go online and if noone is on i am goin to sleep...
||[25 May 2004|11:54am]
This day is goin like so slow its not even funni...
Neway yeah yesterday i was talkin to Joey on the phone and i was like realii hyper..
I found out that Joey was lieing to me...what else is new..
I dont know why he lied bout what he did...
Neway yeah Joey is officialy single..
And he asked me if i was happi and i said i was, i mean i am but i'm not..
Like i said in yesterdays update i still realii like him..
and when i am with him i have the greatest time..
But then i am like in love with Carlo to lolz.......i am just so confused.. :(
Neway yea...This weekend is gonna be grreat..
Lolz oh yeah i am in a skirt todaii!!!! he he
Everyone says i look so cute in one...
I dont think so but whatever..
Neway yeah on Thursay we ae goin to the Carnval...
Also on Thursay i am leaving skool early because i have to go to the hosptial...
Amd get an ultrasound fun fun!
not realyy..:( i am a little Worried about all this..
This weekend we are goin to Keansburg again...This time we will have more money...:)
Then On saturday i think we are gion to Uncle Jr's whoo hooo! not realii...
Rich little richie amd dawn are comin..
We are goin swimmin and Will and sue are comin maybe joey...
I hope not lol i mean i want him to go but i am gonna b in a bathing suit...he he
so sexxiii...ha ha yeah right..On sunday i have to vistit my dad for an hour :(
I realii hate this..
And for once i am actualii missing my mommy..
After she tryed to kill me and shit and pickeddrugs over me..
I still love her and she is my mom and i realii miss her........
ppl can say what they want about her...
And i mean sumtimes i say stuff about her..
But deep down inside i realii miss her nad love her..
yeah well i am gona go get this day over so i can talk to my friendz after skool...
I might go to Borough with sam and every1 or go stalk Carlo again..
I dont care nemore what i do...
Ask j oey i was gonna overdose while on te phone with him but he begged me not to..
Well yeah gonna go finalii i will shut up because no1 ever posts me back so whatever peace out ppl who dont love me nemore
||[24 May 2004|11:51am]
Weekend was okay i guess...
But Thursaii when i watched my sisiter i stayed outside with Carlo until like 11...
It was cool me n him were talkin and and yea..
He smells so good and i can look into his eyes for ever.. :) He is soo sweet..
Of course my sister is in love with him...he he she is such a weirdo...ha ha
Neway me n him are gettin real close now and i raelii like him...
I liked him since like 5th grade..I even had a carlo wall for god sakes! :x
Neway yea but i heard he liked to b single and yea..
But maybe he wil change his mind..
He is my lil loszzer , we call eachother all the time! he he
Saturdaii Me heather Sue and Will went to KeansBurg..
It was cool i guess..
We played soo many crane games!
I won and Elmo and a pink Duckie! Joey called it an Ugly Duckling :(
And iw as gona give it to him but not nemore since he said it was ugly...
I ended up givin it to Theresa! :)
Yeah me and joey are just all messed up..
I mean i love hm soo much but i dont kno..
He came over Yesterday and yea...I was puttin lotion on in the house..
While everyone was sittin outside on the porch..
and Will and Sue were lookin at me through the window like i was weird!
I am sry but my legs and arms were dry..
I came outside and tey were like" How was that Lotion Bath?" and i was like o babii!
It fely soo good...
Yeah then i went inside and watched Toy Story with Richie! I love that movie!
Neway yeah then Joey came inside to sit with me and watch it..
He sat next to me on the love seat awww..
Then Will came in and watched it to..It was grrreat..
Me n joe were fooling around and stuff, tickleing each other, punching and crap...
It was pretti cool...
Then Theresa came in the room and said"So are u guys goin out again"
And we were like no and she was like yeah right.
She said we were the most touchy ppl who arent goin out in the world...ha ha
And we both started to laugh..
We watched the movie and layed on eachother..
I love him but i dont know..
Then Joey left at 9 :15 because he had to go home..
I walked him out to the car and gave him a big hug...
He talked to Will and Sue about us goin out..
Will said he doesnt care but we have to get rid off ppl that we fool around with..
And i was like WTF i dont fool around with othr guys when i have a b/f..
tHATS joey i am sry..buti can tell joey realii loves me now..
Sue said that she still thinks we should wait..
So i think i am gonna listen to Sue, but when we say we are gonna wait it doesnt work
We always say that and end up missin eachother and cryin..
But i wann give Carlo a chance..which might not even happen...
So i dont know what to do n emore i just ned some space to think i guess.
I will prob talk to Sue and Will this weekend when we go this weekend to Keansburg again..
And when we go to Our uncles for Memorial DAYY! o man..
Neways yeah i am just ugh!!!! Well gonna go wrote enough Peace out ppl